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2月4日 the monogamistjust reviewed sex and the city.
after watching this, i don't know whether those married people would feel the same as those who are single. nor do i think those with-somebody-single vs. those single-single would feel identical.
maybe in this versatile world there are just way too much tempatations for people to resist?
or else why there r so many couple broken by a third plus?
r those who r dating different people feeling not too sure this is the right one to settle down or r they afraid of the resposibilities coming along?
people failure report出门两天，家里的6只金鱼剩下1只了。
今天妈妈去冲照片，听照片店的人说，不要买尾巴大大还分叉的金鱼，要买那种像鲤鱼一样的但是彩色的鱼会比较好养好活。妈妈似乎对这个建议更感兴趣，于是我的乌龟计划就被无期限推迟，成为了计划z...
出去玩得两天放了烟花。放的时候只顾着乐和大叫。
反而在去燃放区的路上更有冲击力。
由于放炮的人很多，天上的花，而变得隆隆声，不绝于耳/眼。
当越走越近的时候，感觉自己正走到那些绚烂的花炮中去，穿越的时空的感觉。
描述不来。只可意会，不可言传
我放炮的时候，心里在回想小时候放炮的感觉——5年前，10年前，或是更就之前。
看看身边一只抽烟的叔叔，他是不是在追忆15，20年前的事情？
抑或是下个月公司的预算应该怎样定？
20年后，我还会放炮吧？41岁的我，会在想些什么呢？ 1月31日 金鱼vs花原来常驻北京的时候，每个周末都和妈妈去ikea边上的花市，
买几捧花回家，偶尔还有在我的要求下买得几尾热带鱼。
妈妈不喜欢每次看着花开花败再把花扔掉，所以现在家里除了几盆常年盛开的蝴蝶兰，
只有看上去还蛮逼真的假花。
我家不善于养活物，热带鱼又比较金贵，所以鱼和花的更换速度几乎是一致的。
于是有一段时间只有花，没有鱼。
可是妈妈又喜欢家中有生气，恰巧家中有个大鱼缸，
于是便来养金鱼。
貌似金鱼应该比较容易适应环境，比较容易存活。
可是在我回家的短短两周里，已经亲眼目睹了4条小生命过世了。
以至于昨天晚上做梦，都在抢救金鱼。
梦里面金鱼在退色，仿佛鲜艳的颜色是他们生命力的指示，
然后我就拼命跑拼命跑去救他们，送他们到更富氧的水里面。
可是路太远了，还没送到，金鱼的羽毛就掉了一地，在我手中过世了。
今天一早跑去看金鱼，不幸被我梦中，又一条漂在水上面了……
还是鼓动妈妈养小乌龟吧，传说生命力更强。
1月30日 别留恋过去的东西，大概真的就是那样悄声无息的过去了吧。
从前，也许我们是近乎重合在一起的圆；
若干年后，也许，我们已经忘记了曾经有过那样一个圆。
也许，相切。
很正常。
只是，每次想到的时候，心中有一丝丝的空旷……
可是我对于别的圆，也许忘得更干净？
或许我们现在都不再是圆，
我们把自己，按照自己以为是生活强加给我们的样子，作了整形。
即使有机会，也未必会有人选择再回去做圆
也许，我们只是喜欢守着相簿说，瞧，我那时圆圆的多可爱。 1月25日 hehappy and exhausted.
a bunch of friends of different circles gathered together and went skiing today.
and now i only have the energy to say i did enjoy tomy day.
i now have an excited spirit in an extremely exhausted body.
hum,should lie on bed and read now. 1月22日 熊猫人
1月21日 terrible daylost in pain.
my stomuch is killing me, again.
when i needed extreme conciousness during the final exam period, i had to struggle.
and now i need sleep to peace my pain, i am fully alert to feel every bit of the pain.
irronic.
people.
things within their reach are not of the first priority
and far beyond their reach and out of their controls are what they eagerly pursue.
gotta buy friends back home.
really miss the 6 of them. 1月18日 walk all the way to NYa tough day.
a long day,indeed.
i walked all the way home, from tsinghua uni.
walking can trully calm me down.
after all the steps, i found my way home,
i found a way to discard all those disappointment and sadness.
and now i am caring and thoughtful again.
i really am.
since i have had made my choice, then i would have to pay.
and it is not that much if people don't put them in their little self-enclosure.
right?!!
support.
i understand and i support.
i have kept my promise.
wish everybody healthy,
esp. those who are now not in pink.
1月16日 winter vacationwoo
back home again.
everything is just so familiar and needs no time to catch up.
only mum and i are home and that makes the house a little bit empty, and so is one part of my feelings.
be cool, and take full use of this long vacation.
be a better us.
12月7日 36freezing and esp it is in the morning.
i never liked the winter in shanghai.this year, it seems i have not changed a bit at this very point.
winter in bj, it is warm or even say hot.
and i love it when i can sit my body in that warm tempreture while provide my nostrills with fresh cold air.
that is great joy!
but here in sh, everywhere, just cold.
can't help counting the days back to bj.
u r the right person at the wrong time, wrong place;
u r the wrong person at the right time, right place;
---from a chinese pop song
it also applies when it goes to things in life.
different time, different people and stuff.
nnd discover what is essential and good for now, correctly,
should be a wise idea to make ourselves have a broader and little-bumping road. 11月10日 rolling rollinghaven't been here for a long time.
well, actually, i constantly come here, but seldom publish sth lately.
but i am thrilled today, for my english,uh it sucks.
so it is urgent i recall my sense.
yeah, i gotta read and listen--- no time to spare.
i am very happy, although in a way quite different from what life style of mine used to be.
and i feel stress, for there are tons of work should be done but not and there are tons of tons of work to be done.and for the changes in my life, in the way i treat some of my friends and the way the treat me.
get the ball rolling!! 10月22日 knew=conscious?this afternoon i went to the JA lecture. haven't been to such kind of activities for quite a long time. get to understand better: why the ancient roman philosophers would love to choose touring around as a means of learning and thinking. as long as there are things happen, there are inspiration. the lecturer was the general manager of microsoft greater china technique supporting center. possitive attitude and always do the present things well are the two most striking points to me. well, there are things you always knew, but unfortunately, you just have never been conscious of them. p.s. read a friend's blog. he just wrote something so similar to what i had wrote, almost identical. wow! 10月12日 doll and candy barlife taught me, if u want to acquire something, u've got to trade for it.
beautiful doll in the precisely decorated display window, u r sth the little girla longing for.
they stand in front of the window for hours, days, months, years,
but u r just way too expensive.
but one day, u r gone.
there is sth else in the display window, a candy bar.
i am just so curious to know what happened.
so i asked the shop keep.
the shop keeper said,' there is a little girl who really love this doll.
everyday, she comes here, stares at the doll, as if she had became a statue.
months later, i am just so touched, and said to her
'u can have it if u give me your gorgeous candy bar.'
but she hesitated.
she loved that candy bar.
it had been with her for a long time.
it is huge, sweet, with colors of the rainbow.'
somehow, the candy bar has been traded for that beautiful doll.
and i can imagine the sweetest smile on that little girl's face, shining with tears in regret of the candy bar.
if that is what life takes for the trade, then it is worth it. sorry, i love ulife is fantastic. life is tough.
life is fantastic because there are times it is tough and life is tough because the rest of time it is fantastic.
there are things in life u wish u could all have.
for example,
love and friendship.
whenever the two things become messed up, the two greatest things in life both turned into torture.
i had believed, or say, made myself believe, that, there are friendship, pure friendship, between girls and boys. but how come every time life proofed me wrong?
maybe it is just a luxary and beautiful wish that can never be realised?
or maybe i ,mysel,f am just too selfish?
carrie and mr. big...
i wish i could have u as my friend, but if this means hurt to u,
though i would really really regret,
i'd rather not having u...
sorry, i love u, in a good good friend way. 10月7日 奔跑Run, forest!
yes, run, from different starting lines, we run side by side, competitors also companians.
yes, run. to different destines,or maybe the same.
even if people got different destines, i prefer we seperate at a road junction, rather than see you run past me. 10月5日 各自走在大路上十一假期转眼就过去了。
已经收拾好了行装，12小时之后，又是在上海了。
不知道只在北京或只在上海上学的朋友们能不能理解我这种心情。
那种北京和上海之间的转换，让人觉得有些木讷，有些戏剧化的角色感。
在北京，我是北京的大头。回到了上海，我是上海的猪。
相同的侧面，展现给不同的人；不同的侧面，展现给相同的人。
生活。
越来越懒惰了。
大家说，都等着你组织聚会呢。
的确很想大家。可是懒得操劳了。
等下次吧，一定一定。
真的，回来的机会越来越少了。
今天就走了，还没见着弟弟。
于是打电话到他家，想中午一起吃饭。
舅舅说，好像没在家，我也刚醒。
好，打给弟弟手机。
结果小家伙说：我在上厕所……
服了这两个家伙
10月3日 应酬早晨起来去颐和园。
和煦的阳光，清凉的晨风，惬意的漫步。
总是很享受这样的步行。喜欢在不是很热，不是很吵闹，不是负重很多的情况下步行，
无论是和同行聊天，还是独自一个人放飞思绪，都是极惬意的事情。
所以有空会喜欢和别人压马路。
中学时期的体育老师，总是说我生来就是跑步的，站在跑步上就兴奋，跑起来就享受。
嗬嗬，下回约她出来压马路，让她知道，我生来，也是走路的。
昨天北京有一个百公里步行比赛，32小时内要完成规定的110公里的比赛。
如果知道，真想去参加，爸爸妈妈也想通行。以后要多关注此类的信息才是。
中午去见初中要好的“四人帮”。
大家还是那种亲切的感觉。小蟹还是那样小巧玲珑古灵精怪；大郭身材纤细了很多，越来越漂亮了；母牛去韩国了，没能出席。本来让那两个有男朋友的叫上自己的男朋友，结果未能成行。
anyway,we enjoyed a lovely afternoon.
晚上就打点折扣了。和爸爸的朋友出去应酬。
是不是生意场上就是这样，吃得不是饭，是排场。
明明是大家都已经吃的厌恶掉的东西，只是因为它是某种意义上身份和地位的象征，于是它们成了每顿此类宴席上的规定动作。
10月2日 be healthy几个好友小聚，去了sabian家，拜访吴爸爸吴妈妈。
sabian在清华的两位老师，也在家中小坐。
一屋子的人，谈得好不热闹。叔叔热情地向那两位老师介绍我们这几个“祖国的栋梁”。
可还是听到他心里的叹息：我的儿子，也曾经是他们之中的一员，也曾经是最优秀的。
叔叔和阿姨不停的在说，叔叔问我们每个人的学业，给我们讲各个学科的发展方向，问我以后的打算，给我建议。叔叔的知识面震得非常宽。赞。
帆片没有告诉我，她的妈妈身体不好。
我们两个单独在一起的时候，我问她父母都好么？她说都挺好的
过会儿猪妖和juice都来了，问她妈妈好么。
她说没事了——她的妈妈前些日子被检查出来直肠癌，作了手术，十一之后开始化疗。
让她费心了——她没告诉我，为了让我不要担心。
阿姨，加油！！
突然觉得很释然。不想再去追求那些不曾属于我也不会属于我的东西。
不是指感情，或者，大部分不是指感情。
珍惜自己可以用有的已经拥有的，就是幸福。
于是决定让整个人平静下来踏实下来。
是从心底里踏实下来，并不一定是表面上可以看到的我，就变得平和起来。 9月25日 不可得到，便成了夙愿？回忆过去，看到的总是美好。
是否因为我经历过的真的就是美好？可是时间涤荡，我隐约记得那经历的路上，是有隐隐的痛楚的；可就像从前也写到过的，转过身去，留下的都是美好……
不得而知。无从知道他人的生活点滴，无从比较。
于是，只是相信，我是幸运的。
那些得不到的，是否也会保持美好？
距离产生美。
那不可及的事物，在想象的月光下，模糊而朦胧，晶莹而剔透。
也正因为不可及，他们便成了夙愿——成了心里不服气的结？——成了魂牵梦萦的遗憾？
也许吧，让心中多一份美好。人性还是善良纯真的。
珍惜自己所有的。
珍惜，因为实在难得，实在意外，实在觉得感激。
付出许多，用心培养，这样才不会失去。
即使失去，也不会后悔。
有个朋友说，拥有的时候，就去珍惜；不能拥有的时候，就去完善自己。
学着去珍惜，学着去完善自己。
9月24日 alone, not lonely头痛。
估计是这两天腐败的生活，吃的多睡的多，弄得整个人 昏昏沉沉的。
于是晚上一个人出去溜达了一大圈。
浦东的晚风很凉，吹起蝴蝶袖的丝质衣服，让人自己为自己陶醉。
还是没变，至少在一点上面——我还是很自恋，呵呵。
心情不好又不愿意和别人说的时候，我就会一个人跑出去，走一大圈。
刚开始总是很快，因为心里会觉得很憋闷，或者很生自己气，于是很快。
渐渐的，边走边想，心里慢慢就平静下来了。
之后又觉得要加油，补回来心情不好浪费掉的时间，于是步伐又慢慢的加快。
超级喜欢走路。
今天的漫步，纯粹是为了呼吸新鲜空气。
晚上很安静。一个人的时候，可以不用顾及别人的感受，一个人沉浸在自己的思绪之中。
刚开始很紧张。因为身上只剩下几个硬币了，于是有了目的地：找个银行取钱。
不熟悉的环境，昏黄的灯光，又不知道哪里有银行，于是心里有一点点的紧张。
mission acomplished之后，就很惬意很惬意的瞎溜达。
有点虎头蛇尾，先扔在这里吧…… |
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